I am an avid reader of the blog http://www.theplumpinay.com (it is a body-appreciation blog site founded by twins Danah and Stacy Gutierrez, which aims at helping plus-size women (like me!) love their bodies and find their true self-worth) … where I got the idea to write about my recent dilemma that is somewhat related to embracing my figure while shedding off a few not-so-worth-it-so-called friends.
These are my best friends, Vivian and Xez. We’ve been friends for 11 years (and counting!) and we’ve been through the happiest and roughest of times during the past decade. We all met in Highschool and had been inseparable ever since.

Actually, there used to be four of us, but nowadays I only hang out with the two of them since I decided to let go of the other one forever.
Why the hell did I do it?
I reached my breaking point when my sister Nin and I went to a week-long visit my late Mama’s hometown (Hinunangan, So. Leyte). We were gearing up for our Zipline adventure in Agas-Agas Bridge, and I - overwhelmed by excitement - updated my FB Status immediately. The ex-best friend immediately comments with the usual comment, mainly about the bridge not being able to support my weight —- simply put — about me being too FAT to do it.
I know it was meant to be a joke but still I was enraged, cause this isn’t the first time this person has offended me with such comments. Why can’t he just be fucking happy for me, for once? So I, -overwhelmed with anger -, went ahead and answered his comment (and honestly I don’t really remember the bigger part of it, though I am sure I haven’t said any bad word for that matter). After a little exchange of angry comments, I went ahead and permanently deleted the status and blocked this person from my FB account altogether.
Later that day, we went ahead to our Zipline adventure. And while I was strapped to it and flying above the beautiful mountainous area in Sogod, I promised myself I will never let myself be trampled on again. As the saying goes, “Life is too short to waste on negative people”.
These past few years, I was always conscious with the pictures I post on my personal FB page, cause I know that person would always be armed with a negative comment and I will always have to be there to defend it.. either by commenting back as though it was just a joke or sometimes, I just delete his comments anyway since I don’t like them.
I’ve never had a problem with criticism really, but I believe that person knows the borderline between constructive criticism and just being plainly negative. He was my best friend for crying out loud! It went on for as long as we’d been friends until in August , when I decided to end it. The comments had always been hurtful and destructive, and from someone who’s coping from losing a mother —- dealing with such is the last thing I need. As it said on one article from plumppinay :
“The people closest to you should build up your self-esteem, not knock it down.They may think they’re offering helpful suggestions, but they’re not. So let ‘em know: it’s my body and my business. Stop projecting your hangups on me. Go eat a Twinkie and leave me alone.”
I owe it to my girls, Vivian and Xez —- for having always understood my mood swings and for always respecting my decisions. And also for respecting me as a person; for knowing when to criticize and when to be a true friend.
I am not asking for too much really, just a little respect.